Labels …. what is that they say about them?
Labels can be dangerous, because they create a catalyst for the self-fulfilling prophesy. We should be so careful about the terms we say to children, because they will grow up internalising their label, believing it, and eventually becoming it. We should avoid labelling people, because it reduces their worldview and disencourages them from exploring outside the parameters of their label.
But I need a label right now.
When my initial psych (just one of those I’ve never seen since) suggested I had “Cyclothymia,” I was skeptical to embrace it as a diagnosis, because I have had several others in the past. But, to be honest, it seemed to fit what I knew of Me through the ages past and present – although not in the “mild-form-of-bipolar”/”just-a-little-more-severe-than-normal” sense, but in the “Stephen-Fry-occasionally-climb-rooftops-hate-self-with-a-passion-but-get-on-with-life-regardless” sense. I admit I started to warm to the idea of this particular label, and I even wrote “The Cyclothymia Song” in its honour. It was a label that seemed more right than wrong, and at last I had something that fit better than the previous labels, albeit still a couple of sizes too small.
But then I did something silly, and not only have the goalposts changed, but I’m apparently no longer cyclothymic. They’ve rescinded my label!
According to the psych, “It’s more serious than Cyclothymia.” However, he said, it doesn’t fit the criteria for Bipolar because of the rapidity of the cycles, which average weekly turnarounds, and there is no DSM (?) slot it fits into.
So, here I am ….. “Unknown Rapid-Cycling Something-or-other” …..
And it sucks!
What am I supposed to tell people?
Them: “Oooh, why have you been off work for five months?”
Me: “I don’t bloody know!”
I’m of the belief that I’m OK with being open about my condition, so how do I explain “Unknown Rapid-Cycling Something-or-other”? I want to write another song about it ! I want to be in Glenn Close’s next PSA ! How I am I supposed to fit “Unknown Rapid-Cycling Something-or-other” onto a T-shirt?
At least when I had something, I could look it up, join support groups, or contact fellow bloggers with similar diagnoses ….
Anybody out there fancy joining my “Unknown Rapid-Cycling Something-or-other” group?
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