I’ve been busy again ….

I am humbly aware that my blogging posts have become ever rarer in recent weeks. Suffice it to say that life has been one crisis after another, and I shall consider writing about some of the stuff that has been going on when I feel like sharing.

Once upon a time, in the days pre-meltdown, before all this incredibly confusing, mood swinging, personality changing, psych tip-toeing, multi-agency lip serving bullcrap succeeded in pounding my mind into mush … I used to sit with my son as he lay in bed, and made up stories about Bert, an itchy-footed Penguin that travelled about the earth living one crazy adventure after another.  Since I went off work on sick leave, I vowed to immortalise Bert in the written form, and have made sporadic efforts to do so. I’ve even signed up for NaNoWriMo (the challenge to write 50,000 words in 30 days) twice. But I struggle so much with the written word lately (as this blog lays testament). I want to get the words down, but something stands in their way: apathy, irritation, fatigue, sadness, who knows what?

In the absence of literary distractions, I have had to find some other way to redirect my mind when all else seems to be falling apart around me. During an attempt to clean out the junkyard of a storeroom in my cellar, I came across a veritable treasure trove of materials hoarded over several years. Perhaps it’s the nature of this illness, but I have a history of ebbing and flowing with creative ideas. Every now and then I develop an overwhelming desire to do something creative, accompanied by an equally overwhelming need to go out and buy all the materials needed for the task. Then, as a general standard, the wind changes and I fall out of the creative mood as quickly as I fell into it, and the stuff never gets touched. As a result, my storeroom is bulging with boxes and boxes of old crockery bought as job lots from auctions, bargain barrels of tiles, grout, adhesive, tile nippers, tools. Hundreds of cross stitching magazines. Three black dustbin bags full of patterned cloths. Another bag full of knitting wools. Paints, papers, and pallets. You name it, it’s down there.

Last week – finally – I found the energy to actually start making a mosaic. A large tree stump slice had been standing up against the wall in my garden for years. In an effort to recycle a few more bits in the garden, I attempted to make it into a “table” but I wasn’t happy with the natural look. So I got out the hammer and some old tiles, and just began smashing and sticking. The shape of the wood and the way it had been cut lent itself to a sweeping type of pattern – and it was just natural to do the whole rainbow thing.

Personally, I’m pretty pleased with the final product – but more than that, I’m pleased I completed something.

© Alice through the Macro Lens [2012]

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22 thoughts on “I’ve been busy again ….

  1. You have such talent! It is beautiful!

    • Thanks Rainey. Ideally, I’d love to be able to do this kind of thing all the time – but the motivation levels are so unpredictable! I’ve made a promise to try and force myself to do something creative as often as I can – even when I don’t want to.

  2. OMG … this is gorgeous. I want one. 😀 You’re so talented.

  3. this is absolutely beautiful! wow.

  4. What beauty awaits when you have the mind for it… and even when you don’t. You awe many with your photos. Many wish you well and follow you through your struggles. We all cheer when you accomplish something that fulfills you! The table is beautiful as is probably the feeling that you saw the process to completion. Hang in there!

  5. Thanks Lidia. As ever, your words are so meaningful and touching. I am going to try and continue forcing myself to create something as often as I can, because it is very cathartic and keeps my mind quiet.

  6. That is really superb, and the colors are very nice! I would love to do a table from a big sliver of tree.

  7. Beautiful! I keep thinking I’d like to do something like that. But all I do is think it. Good for you, going at it and getting it done!

    • Up until now, all I have done is think it too. I’m glad I finally got around to actually doing something this time. You should too.
      Perhaps you can make a pine cone sculpture ? 🙂

  8. Lovely, lovely, lovely!! well done you !

  9. This is inspired – and inspiring! The piece is beautiful, but likely not nearly so rewarding as finding a perfect use for these neglected items, and having the wherewithal to see and complete the project that was waiting there! Everything has its time. Glad you’re back.

  10. Beautiful work! I love how you put it on the tree stump. Really nice.

  11. I love this! You have inspired me to do more with what I have! Not to mention, inspired me to get up every morning and exercise my own creativity. Thank you!

  12. DeeDee

    Can I commission a piece? This is awesome!

    I completely know what you mean about being struck by a sudden urge to take up some craft, buying all the materials for it, and then moods shifting and it just gathers dust. Most recently it was a quilt. I also have a decade-long scrap afghan in the works.

    But making stuff isn’t the limit of it – I’ve also had an overwhelming urge to take up roller derby and playing the ukelele. Why? Who knows? Managed to suppress those desires so far, but god help me when I start buying ukeleles and roller skates…

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